PART NINE: A DIVINE VERDICT

As soon as the Christ had returned to Heaven, I felt an overwhelming sense of responsibility to share me life-saving story with everyone. I immediately realized, though, that I had no proof of my death and resurrection. I knew that no one would believe me and that I would be labelled insane. I sensed that timing was not right for me to tell of my experiences. I was not afraid to talk about what had just happened to me, but I knew that no one would benefit from the telling as there was no proof.

On realizing that I could not tell anyone what had happened to me, I felt empty inside and I felt as though I were in a vacuum. I lost sight of what my purpose in life was. I thought that life was meaningless, if I could not live to my fullest for God, Christ, and God's plan. I began to wonder if was just too much of a coward to talk about my death and resurrection. I debated this idea for a short while.

In the end, I decided to concentrate on the Kingdom of God and on trying to show people around me the love that God can have for those, who want to love and obey Him. I felt the need to tell as many people as I could about the gift of eternal life available from God. I knew that my immediate deeds had to be met, too. To this end, I knew that I had to finish delivering my newspapers. This thought jolted me back to the reality of my world and I noticed that my car was still slowly moving forward. I could not tell whether or not the car engine was still running: my hearing was either out of synchronization with the physical world or I was not able to hear temporarily. My first reaction was to tramp on the brakes. I checked for cars behind me and there was no one on the road either behind or in front of me. In a bit of panic, I tramped on the brakes without putting my foot down on the clutch and the car stalled as it had a standard transmission. I restarted my and proceeded in the direction of the Whonnock General Store, which was my next stop.

As I was driving, everything seemed as normal as before except my surroundings had a strangely quiet air about them. It felt as though time had stopped. The sky was quite abnormal in one way: it was filled with an intense white light. Except for the sky, any abnormality to those moments was virtually imperceptible: something just felt strange.

Then suddenly, my body felt light. My car seemed to be moving up off the ground. I double checked to see if my car and I were actually ascending upwards and I could not believe my eyes: my car and I were ascending upwards slowly. I started pushing down on the steering wheel to force my car back down to the road. My car and I rose above the treetops. I felt giddy. There was a blinding, white flash and a power surge went through my body. I knew that I had been made immortal.

Admittedly, I felt disoriented as well as giddy. Even now, it seems odd to me that I would have had such human-oriented or physically oriented reactions, but it was likely just a transitional reaction. I was uncertain as to what I should do, as to what I was doing, and as to what I was being compelled to do. I suspected that my purpose in life had changed. I sensed something else at that moment, too. I was aware that the earth was moving through the galaxy faster than usual. I sensed that the earth was hurtling towards the sun.

I looked off to my right and I saw God, Christ, the Angel Gabriel, and several other Angels. God told me to get out of my car, which was about four car heights above the treetops, and to join them. I opened my car door and God told me that I did not need to open it as I was immortal and incorporeal. He said that I could even go through the roof of the car. I opened the door half way and then I stood up and passed through the door, the door's upper frame, and the car roof as any spirit being would. I felt even giddier from the effects of having just been made immortal and from the height.

I started to walk on air towards God and then, I became very aware of being above the trees and I started to sink. God told me that I was all right and that I should keep walking. I relaxed. I began to laugh because I thought of the biblical account, where Christ's apostles were in a boat on the Sea of Galilee and they saw Christ walking on the water towards them. Peter asked Christ to let him join Him on the water and Christ told Peter to get out of the boat and walk to Him. Peter did so and was successful until his fear took over and he started to sink. Christ reached out to him, took a hold of him, and rescued him. The similarity between this story and my situation was too great to unnoticed by me. God asked me why I was laughing and I told Him what I was thinking. God told me that I knew His Word very well. I thanked Him and apologized for my lack of faith. Then, I laughed and explained to God that it was foolish enough of myself to think that I would sink, if I kept my focus, but also it was very foolish of myself to think that I would get hurt when I was immortal.

Once again, God asked me to approach His Group and Him. I started towards Him. I was overawed by God: He appeared to be about fifteen times the size of a six-foot or one-hundred-eighty-centimetre tall human being. Christ appeared to be three times the size of a six-foot tall human being and the Angel Gabriel appeared to be about twice the size of a six-foot tall human being. The rest of the Angels appeared to be about the same size as a six-foot tall human being.

I said to God that I sensed that He was hurtling the earth towards the sun and he confirmed my observation. I became very pensive and as a result I stopped approaching God. I asked the Creator why He would destroy the earth. He looked really terrifyingly angry and He said that he was angry with the people on the earth, that He was angry that I had been shot, and that He was sorry that He had made the earth at all. God told me that His Creation was a failure and that He was disappointed in it.

I said that I thought that His Creation was not a failure and I asked Him how He could make good on His promise of resurrection for all those, who had died believing in Him. He said that He could raise up anyone, whom He wanted to raise up. He said that He could start again and make a new earth. I apologized to God for daring to question His decision to destroy the earth, but I said that it seemed a waste to started again when it could be possible to convince more humans that He really does love all those, who follow His Word. I said that more people would want to follow Him, would want to serve Him, and would thirst for eternal life, if they were just told about Him. I said that it seemed unfortunate that the living faithful at that moment should taste death in such a way. God told me that He could keep the faithful at that time alive. I countered by saying that those, whom He kept alive would remember the old earth and that the recollection would cause them emotional pain. God said that He could erase all the memories from those people. I countered again by saying that I was immortal and that I would likely have a fraction of my memories intact. During this discussion, I frequently apologized to God, if I seemed irreverent in my comments. He said that I was not being irreverent, that it was all right for me to talk to Him in that manner, and that the discussion was useful.

Then, God put an amazing question to me. He asked me what I proposed. I asked God to return me to my mortal state, to put me back on the earth, and to give me some time to tell more people about Him, His love, and His promise. God told me to stand where I was and not come any closer in order to allow His some time to confer with His close Group around Him. I agreed, of course! God turned to face His entire Group. I could not see Them all because of God's enormity. After about a minute of discussion, God turned to face me again. He said that my suggestion was accepted. He told me that my struggles would continue, but that I would eventually conquer them. He asked, if I accepted that. I said that it would be difficult, but I told Him that it was for the best for everyone on earth and in Heaven. I accepted. God said that there would be some changes to His Word (the Bible).

A few more things were said and then, God asked me to get into my car. I was told that I would be returned to earth and that I would not be fully aware of the discussion that had just taken place, right away. God said that I would remember everything concerning my death and resurrection gradually.